Jenna Lewis-Dougherty‘s long-awaited return to Survivor unfortunately didn’t last long when the Survivor: Borneo alum became the first player voted out of Survivor 50–a shocking early exit that stunned fans who were eager to see one of the franchise’s most recognizable OGs back in the game after more than two decades.

In her exit interview with Men’s Journal, the realtor, 47, explains that her fate was sealed before the first vote was even cast. She opens up about how she entered the milestone season with “zero pregame” alliances and “knew nobody out there,” which put her at an inherent disadvantage against tightly connected players with years of history.

Despite her early elimination, Jenna doesn’t seem to have regrets and is happy with the way her story unfolded on screen and how the edit “paid homage” to her journey.

Scroll down to read the full exit interview with Jenna.

Men’s Journal: Jenna, how are you feeling today?

Jenna Lewis-Dougherty: I actually feel really good for a couple reasons. No. 1, CBS, Paramount, Jeff [Probst]—they gave me a beautiful edit, and they really paid homage to Survivor 1. It comes in with my eyes; it was really beautiful. I think they did an amazing job because when you go home, you’re always worried they could edit that to make me look so bitchy. But no, it’s so different now than it was on the first one. They really try to give you a good edit, but also they take the whole performance, not just one or two things that you said for sensationalism. So I feel great. Seeing the things I didn’t know were going on—because I’m not all-present and I don’t know who’s talking to who—seeing how some of that went down, I would love to clarify some of that.

Men’s Journal: Yes, please do. What did you see that surprised you?

Jenna Lewis-Dougherty: What surprised me was [Rick] Devens telling Cirie [Fields] at the water well that I said her name. I will depose Christian [Hubicki] with an attorney that this is how it happened: Day one, we were all sitting around getting to know each other, and I said, “Hey, how do you feel about the group?” He says, in his little Christian way, “I’m going to go sit down by somebody and you know that person’s a threat.” He goes over, sits next to Cirie, talks to her for two minutes, comes back over and he goes, “Do you see who I sat next to?” I said, “Yeah, Cirie.” And he goes, verbatim, “If she gets to a tribe swap or a merge, she will be lost in the wind and will never have a chance at her again.”

I was like, “Yes, she’s a threat and a liability.” The challenges were just—I knew it was going to be awful, but it was worse than I could have ever imagined. Threat and a liability and in a duo. We all knew it was Ozzy [Lusth] and Cirie. You will be the collateral damage with a duo that strong. I really thought they saw that. This is not Cirie’s game; this is Christian’s game. Christian is playing everyone over there. He is absolutely the chess master. He even says it in the episode: “I’m Spock, your Captain Kirk. I’m doing all the thinking. I’m going to send you to do my dirty work.” Cut to Devins going to the water well and telling Cirie. It literally shows you in that episode I’m saying I’m going to use him to go do my dirty work so it’s not on my hands.

Men’s Journal: So Christian was a little bit more involved than we saw in terms of Cirie’s name?

Jenna Lewis-Dougherty: 100 percent involved.

Men’s Journal: Interesting. When you saw your tribe, were you like, “This is great,” or “I’m in trouble”?